In Search of Harmony
While things could be going much much worse, they could be going far better as well. I am trying to help, but feel completely ineffective. While stresses over which I have control are ones I can deal with and proactively solve, the ones over which I have little to no control make me feel like I am in a constant tail-spin. Head-aches keep popping up behind my eyes and my concentration has been permanently shattered. Whenever I settle down to do work it is as if a junior high wind ensemble is assembled behind me, sight-reading a difficult piece of music after a long summer off. Of course, the cacophony is purely mental, but still wonderful at ruining my ability to focus.
I know things will turn out right here. It is not that I am not worried because it is not me, it is because I know that choosing a path means other troubles fall away. Uncertainty, the greatest trouble of all, is the hardest thing to overcome. It is like static friction: the most force is required to get an object to overcome friction; once things are moving, it takes less force to keep them going.
Life is a ball that just needs a push. People are friends that just need a hand. The hardest step is the first one.