‘Spective
The password to this login area is so long, I wonder if it sometimes it just lets me in on account that I took the time to attempt to spell the password correctly. Well, not really spell it, but assemble the characters in a nearly-correct-order. That reminds me, I changed my dialup access number and now I can’t recognize my IP in the hit section of the backend of this website. Strange. I’ll learn it soon, or get so bugged that I’ll just change the number back. 56k is not gonna happen anyways - this modem just doesn’t play well with anybody’s server. Back in the day, when I used to call Matt’s home number and his modem picked up and we played the original Nascar … peer2peer - that was cool. My ICQ number is fairly low - 11 million something. Guess I’m just reminiscing about my early days online. Windows 3.1, running all my programs off the zip drive; back when 2x was a ‘quick’ CD read speed. In the scheme of things, this was not that early - but compared to the time all of my peers and classmates got online - it was a while before that. I remember criticizing AIM while chatting on ICQ. Then AIM started making some advances that ICQ just couldn’t match and then ICQ got bought by AOL. That really wasn’t fun. So, grudgingly, we figured out how to register on AOL and got our screen names on. The switch took a while to get used to. To this day, AIM lives on the right side of my screen and ICQ on the left. Now I remember, I made an skin for ICQ once. Hmm - that took a while. It always surprises me to think how much time I have wasted spent on Paint Shop Pro images, online chatting, HTML coding, calculator game downloading/playing, website designing and web site destroying. I wonder what would lie before me if all of this time had been channeled towards one massive effort. For example, if I had made one huge, PHP and mySQL database driven website, there would be a big something. Or, how about if I had copied every CD i have come across since I got the equipment; how much music would I have? How many laws would I have broken? Case in point; I started Lifetime years ago and go there regularly. This could be considered a “massive effort.” I do not wish to brag about, embellish, or describe in detail the results of such an effort but it does give me a sense of satisfaction/accomplishment. I think that is what I am craving.
Sometimes, I go into Borders and I am completely overwhelmed. There is so much music I want to hear, books I want to read, facts I want to know, concepts about people and their interaction I want to learn, just so much knowledge I want to internalize. It’s staggering. When a person can derive so much satisfaction and inspiration from one book, think of the effect of learning a whole topic from many books, or a whole series of fiction, or learning a new skill … like woodworking. Actually, I don’t have too much interest in woodworking.
I suppose it makes sense now; why I don’t play video games too much. Why spend hours when you have nothing to show for it? You may have noticed this website is put together in such a way to make you very aware of how much stuff is on it - I think I did this unconsciously because I like to see how much has been accomplished. Part of me loves to look back on what’s been done - and the other part likes to sit online and chat - and think about what I would do if I had a playstation II and SSX tricky and SSX. I love SSX.
I’ll just leave it as an even split between the two.